Rewiring
I have a beautiful new friend and we discovered pretty quickly we have a lot in common. Recently we shared what we were embarrassed to admit… the things consuming more of our thoughts and energy than we wanted. But there was comfort in sharing. In knowing we both work hard to corral thinking that has no business in our hemispheres.
I remember reading that our thoughts should be like our best friends. If I'm honest with myself, there are mostly enemies up there.
Thoughts swirling about people who don't deserve my attention.
Thoughts about things I wish I could take back but can't.
That loop of thinking that keeps me from sleeping and wakes me up at 2am.
If we were to bottle our thoughts into human form, would they be someone we'd want to hang out with? Many days, I'd say no.
We've both realized we have a say in this dialogue. The Eileen Gu video from last week was about exactly this. Neuroplasticity teaches us we're programmers. I decide how to wire my brain, which patterns to reinforce, how far I let my thoughts stray into scary caverns of doubt. I can train myself to circulate peaceful, loving thoughts instead. I'm rewiring daily.
I want to get faster at this—catching the cavern thoughts before they settle in. They've got no business here. It's the others that bring out the qualities I admire. It’s my party and these are the thoughts I want to entertain and host.